The silver lining to the cloud by Rob

I know what I am suffering has been given a title or a name
but knowing that small detail, it is frightening all the same.
The useless anger, frustration and fears
and the shedding of more than just a few tears.
I hurt the ones I love the most
and this is something about which I cannot boast.

The unbearable pain, turmoil and sorrow
often makes me pray that there is no tomorrow.
I have said things and done things of which I am not proud
and the memory of these things still haunt me like an eternal dark cloud.

To wind back the clock and to start anew
if this was in my power, I would surely do.
But what is done is done and cannot be changed
our lives have forever been re-arranged.

The tunnel before me is long, winding and dark,
my demons they face me, and have already left their mark.
I cannot make a promise, but I will face them if I can,
to send them whence they came, and fight them like a man.
The battle is not over and I still have far to go,
But with your love inside me, I will give a mighty show.

Words cannot express my emotions or exactly how I feel,
confusion reigns supreme in me, which time alone can heal.
To the ones I love the most, I say please stay by my side
as I fight the currents of this horror, I will need you as my guide.

For what I have said and done, I ask you to forgive,
let the past stay in the past, we have new lives to live.