Bereaved mum received spiritual gifts

Jesus lead me in the darkness,
lead me to your light,
please take away my pain that
worsens in the night.
When I search the net when the world is all asleep,
You lead me to read things that makes my heart a-leap.
I'm finding "gifts" these days that have no financial gain,
these gifts give calm and comfort and help take away the pain.
When all is said and done, the journey's taken me here,
to a place where I am more accepting of your truth, which tells me do not fear.
In those dark moments when I forget that you are, after all, the potter,
please let your spirit fill my soul, like a sponge in need of water.
I ask you for gifts of the spiritual kind to lighten my heavy load,
so please Jesus, just one more request, give me the patience to wait for you as I walk this lonely road.